Between a Rock and a Shitty Place

Bringing a baby into the world is a HUGE reponsibility that I really was not prepared to take on. But I feel like me and the Bearded Wonder have really come quite a ways since the big day in September when we realized “Holy crap, we’re pregnant.” We have worked extremely hard to get to a place, financially, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, where we can feel comfortable bringing a new life into this world. We’ve made a ton of progress. Unfortunately, Lucy really doesn’t give a damn if we’re ready or not, she’s a-comin’!

One of the biggest issues we’re dealing with is how to afford this new family. The medical costs alone are enough to give me a seizure, but add in all of the diapers and the clothes and the car seats, et cetera, and I may just go in to cardiac arrest. Luckily, we have an amazing group of family and friends that have helped out with everything that they can.

Now we have been offered a chance for me to possibly stay home and not return to work. But I’m not sure it’s worth what I will pay in the end. I won’t go into more detail, but let’s just say there are worries on my part because you don’t get ANYTHING for FREE. There is no such thing. But is the cost worth me being able to stay home for an extra few months with my daughter?

Crap. Responsibility is a bitch.