Sleep Apnea

Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am that my wonderful, little princess is already sleeping through the night. They go on and on about how lucky we are and how rested we look. That is usually when I want to punch them in the head.

You see, I haven’t really slept in about 10 months. Throughout the whole pregnancy and after, I’ve had a lot of trouble getting to sleep at night. It drives me absolutely nuts! Especially since this has continued into the present. For example, our nightly schedule is this: Lucy goes down for bed at around 8:30 p.m. I wake her up at 10:30 p.m. for a final feeding, and then I head off to bed between 11 and 11:30. Then I lay in bed until at least 1 a.m. Sometimes I fall asleep, sometimes I don’t. Then, when baby girl wakes up at 6 in the morning, I’m exhausted. Then I usually put her back down at 7 or 7:30 a.m., I go back to sleep until 10. Then I’m up all day and it just keeps going in that never-ending cycle.

I am a person that really likes to get up early and get things done and I REALLY need my rest. I’m beginning to get so frustrated with all of this, and I don’t know what to do because as a nursing mom, I can’t take any sleeping meds. I wish Trent’s sleep schedule could rub off on me. That kid can fall asleep anywhere at any time. Ridiculous. So right now I have finally given up on falling asleep easily and have filled my KU scooner with some Bud Light, hoping it will make me sleepy. Or at least put me in a better mood.