Juggling

Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m being torn in half. Being a working parent is always hard, but with Lu starting preschool last week and my insane work schedule, I’ve been punched in the gut with massive amounts of guilt. I don’t see her all day, then I pick her up from the new school, run her across the street to her godparents’ house, and run back out the door to an event for work. If I skip the work event, then I’m stuck explaining to my boss why I wasn’t there or why I didn’t meet that vice president that was to attend. Trust me, not fun. I know that it’s not a normal schedule, and that things will slow down in a few weeks in terms of late night events, but what do I do now? How do I explain to Lu that I really do have to leave her (again) and that I promise we’ll have mama-Lucy time tomorrow? How do I say that to her, when I myself am thinking, “But I want my Lucy time nooowwww!”

The great thing about the web is it has so many stories to prove you’re not alone in anything you do. I’ve read story after story from women in the same position I’m in, and each one gives me hope that I’m not royally screwing up my child for life. This link is to a CNN story where several of the top CNN reporters talk about their balance as working moms, and their own guilt over the choices they’ve made. Hey, if Soledad O’Brian can do it with four kids and amazing hair, then so can I!